Why I don't want to have a kid (at all)

For someone who loves to read and write stories about filial love and domestic affections, I sure do hate the idea of marriage and having a kid of my own. One would wonder, "What's up with that dissonance?" but thankfully none of the people who insist I will change my mind later know about those stories, lest they'll use it against me.

That... sounds like I was waiting for an attack. Or that I don't trust the people around me... which is true on both account.

Anyway, back to the original point of this ~article~

• I'm not confident in my ability to nurture and care for others when I'm already having a hard time to keep myself healthy and functional.
• I know some people says "It will change after you give birth." but what if it doesn't? I'm not gonna risk ruining someone's life just because I happened to luck out of motherly instinct.
• Honestly, do people think children is some sort of trophy??? A must have object? Is that why old people insists their children must have children?
• Probably the reason why a lot of us ended up with anxiety and other disorders, because some of those old people think they own their children instead of owing their children

"Wait? Owing their children? Yarra! That doesn't make sense! Parents are the ones bringing their children into this world!"

And those children didn't ask to be born, didn't ask to be treated like a trophy. Parents tend to say stuff life "I took care of you as a kid and this is the thanks that I get?" when their child disagree with them. Even though taking care of your children is an obligation and not a goddamn excuse to manipulate your kids.

So, see, I don't want to have kids not because I hate them. Quite the opposite! I love them and I don't want to be responsible for destroying their childhood or ruining them as a person! I trust myself to take care of kids as much as I trust my dad to stop making "friendly jabs" that chip away my confidence!